Little by little I’m picking at C.S. Lewis’s Weight of Glory sermon, and I can’t help but enjoy this quote about the use of intellectual life in a Christian’s life. Not that I think I’m a very intellectual person, but I am a very curious person who likes to know things—sometimes for my benefit, and a lot of the times, not so much. Sometimes intellectualism is thrown to the extremes: either highly revered to the point of idolatry and hung up as a shiny badge that allows for condescension towards others, or it is thrown out of the chapel window because it is regarded as secular and the spiritual and intellectual should not be intermixed. Here is what Lewis says: 

"The intellectual life is not the only road to God, nor the safest, but we find it to be a road, and it may be the appointed road for us. Of course, it will be so only so long as we keep the impulse pure and disinterested. That is the great difficulty. As the author of the Theologia Germanica says, we may come to love knowledge—our knowing—more than the thing known: to delight not in the exercise of our talents but in the fact that they are ours, or even in the reputation they bring us. Every success in the scholar’s life increases this danger. If it becomes irresistible, he must give up his scholarly work. The time for plucking out the right eye has arrived.”

Yet, there is a place for an intellectual life. He continues on: 

"If all the world were Christian, it might not matter if all the world were uneducated. But, as it is, a cultural life will exist outside the Church whether it exists inside or not. To be ignorant and simple now—not be be able to meet the enemies on their own ground—would be to throw down our weapons, and to betray our uneducated brethren who have, under God, no defense but us against the intellectual attacks of the heathen. Good philosophy must exist, if for no other reason, because bad philosophy needs to be answered. The cool intellect must work not only against cool intellect on the other side, but against the muddy heathen mysticisms which deny intellect altogether.  Most of all, perhaps, we need intimate knowledge of the past. Not that the past has any magic about it, but because we cannot study the future, and yet need something to set against the present, to remind us that the basic assumptions have been quite different in different periods and that much of which seems certain to the uneducated is merely temporary fashion."

Fun stuff! All in all, knowledge can be used for good and bad. Let us be people that possess knowledge, not for being knowledgable’s sake, but rather, in order to lovingly, humbly, and graciously bless others. 


I was walking down the messy travel aisle at work today asking people if they needed any assistance when I ran into an older white couple wearing jeans and jean jackets. They asked if I could help them find a backpack that was sturdy enough for walking around China with their laptop—which is something they do because they live in China now. They hand me 3 different backpacks and ask me the differences among them. I point out a backpack. 

"Yes, this backpack will do. It has great support on the shoulders and back, and a nice built in neoprene sleeve for your computer." 

"Oh wonderful! I think we’ll take it. It helps that she likes the color! " He proceeds to wink at his wife. 

The wife asks me if I’ve ever heard of the poem about getting old and wearing purple. And I said no. She tells me to look it up. So I do. Here is the poem: 


When I am an old woman I shall wear purple
With a red hat which doesn’t go, and doesn’t suit me.
And I shall spend my pension on brandy and summer gloves
And satin sandals, and say we’ve no money for butter.
I shall sit down on the pavement when I’m tired
And gobble up samples in shops and press alarm bells
And run my stick along the public railings
And make up for the sobriety of my youth.
I shall go out in my slippers in the rain
And pick flowers in other people’s gardens
And learn to spit.

You can wear terrible shirts and grow more fat
And eat three pounds of sausages at a go
Or only bread and pickle for a week
And hoard pens and pencils and beermats and things in boxes.

But now we must have clothes that keep us dry
And pay our rent and not swear in the street
And set a good example for the children.
We must have friends to dinner and read the papers.

But maybe I ought to practice a little now?
So people who know me are not too shocked and surprised
When suddenly I am old, and start to wear purple. 

Jenny Joseph, 1961
Haha. I think that’s cute. 

Amazing that blind will spend so much of their time trying to lead the blind, telling them that all this beauty happened by chance, when they themselves intrinsically understand, the instance of phenomena breathtaking, incredible awesome; In their rebellious deliberate ignorance, they have no idea how much it will cost them. 

We are without excuse, unable to say,

Nothing made the sun rise today. 

By Your works, Your Creation declares You. 

Little by little we have gone astray, 

Falling for the treacherous tricks and meticulous marketing of the one who lurks in the shadows, waiting to pounce and steal seeds away. 

Our glorious purposes relegated to a demeaning rote routine, Short bursts of  many pursuits of false gold and decaying things. Only You can save us, Jesus. 



                That you were at the time separated from Christ

                Alienated from the commonwealth of Israel

                And strangers to the covenants of promise,

                                  Having no hope and without God in the world. 


                 Now in Christ Jesus you who were once far off

                 Have been brought near 

                                                          by the blood of Christ.

For He himself [no one else, or nothing more] is our peace,

Who has made us [the Church] both one

And has broken down in His flesh 

                                                    the dividing wall of hostility

                   By abolishing the law of commandments expressed in ordinances

                   That he might create in Himself

                                            One new man in place of two,

                                            So making peace, 

                          And might reconcile us both [Himself and us] to God

                                                               in one body [marriage]

                                                                       through the cross

                                                                                  thereby killing the hostility.

And he came and preached

            Peace to you who were far off

            And peace to those who were near. 


For through Him, we both have access in one Spirit to the Father. 



-Ephesians 2:12-18 


Spiritual maturity is not primarily measured by our sanctification, but in the measure of growth in our faith and dependence on God for all things. 


So far it’s been a year of taking science/mathy classes. God’s grace alone has gotten me through. For sure. 

Time for a breather, and back in I go. 


sfijsfosfso!!! 3 more weeks. ! ! ! 

Photo Set

note for self: for future reference 


Patricio Betteo

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Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. 

Faith is the assurance [that it will for certain happen] of things hoped for [And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God.He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”], the conviction of things not seen[ And you, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses, by canceling the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. This he set aside, nailing it to the cross. He disarmed the rulers and authorities and put them to open shame, by triumphing over them in him.]